Monday, 28 April 2014

Finding my Soul Beyond the Red Hue of a Wine Glass

As a 57 year old woman; wife to my best friend and grandmother of 3 little ones with a 4th on the way, I am on day 4 of my umpteenth and final attempt at abstinence from daily wine drinking. 

I am not a falling down drunk, have never caused a scene and my friends and family don't know I have a problem. I know it because it takes up too much of my precious time. At any given moment in time I am either planning to drink, drinking, regretting drinking, planning to stop drinking or attempting to abstain from drinking. It's a vicious cycle and I am tired of it. 

For the next year or two, I will chronicle my life as a sober wife, mother and granny with total honesty about the ups and downs of achieving what will be the most difficult and rewarding goal of my lifetime: sobriety. I am searching and am confident I will find the soul of the woman that lies beyond the red hue of a glass of red.

Follow along on my journey.  If you find yourself to be in similar circumstances, then you've come to the right place as I am a relentless seeker of useful information and will be sharing every tidbit and tool I find with you, the reader and hopefully, my sister in sobriety.

Although math was never my strong point, I calculate that I probably have close to thirty years of living left in this body if nothing untoward befalls me.  I have wasted much of the last 12 years numbing out the pain, joy, love and fear with red wine.  My goal is to live those remaining years as a vibrant, joyful, active, wise woman and an example to my children and grandkids.

Along the way I hope to learn to practice self-care, conscious living, meditation and a moderate, simple lifestyle.  Please join me and remember that if we don't change direction, we just may end up where we are headed!


  1. I just found your blog and am so inspired. Day 3 of my latest attempt but I have never been online before and I hope to start my own blog. Thanks for your honest, your courage and your sharing.

    1. Thanks Flora, I love your name. I am now at day 60 today (Yay!!) and it's really not been that bad. My mind was quietly made up and I was so sick of the vicious cycle that drinking just hasn't been that tempting. I've had my weak moments and came close once or twice but, like you, I've done this stop-start-stop start thing way too many times to continue without feeling like I've let my whole life become a waste pit of nothing. Thanks for visiting and I encourage you to start a blog. when you do, let me know and I will be your first follower!! xoxo

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