Hello there cyber world. I have been out of the circle for a while. I took a break from sobriety and it's all good. I am now embarking on a 30 day period of abstinence to reprogram myself. I've been on vacation in Clearwater Beach, Florida for the past few weeks and ate a lot of greasy food, drank a few beers and had a margerita or two. I am ready to attack the beast again.
While in Florida I found a plaque and put it up near my wine glass cupboard. It says "Quitting Drinking is Easy; I've Done it 1000 Times". I figure if I keep taking long breaks, eventually they may begin to run into each other.
I cannot take my wishy washy behaviour to heart. It's who I am and how I roll. I am sporadic with housework, eating habits, exercising, self-care, office work and every other facet of my life. Why would I be able to achieve perfect discipline in abstinence? If I spend my life self-attacking I will get no where.
But, I made a doctor's appointment to get my blood pressure checked exactly one month from today and I know if I commit to moving, eating well, meditating and abstaining the chances are pretty good I can keep the blood pressure pills at bay for a while longer. I am on the border.
I hope to post daily for the next 30 days to keep myself on track.
I've been reading a lot about resting in the present moment and have found a simple book called the Four Agreements that resonates with me. It's about living a life based on self-love, forgiveness, communication and acceptance. I hope I am on the right track.
I have a few items to tick off my To Do list and will get started now.