We all have so much in common! When I look at all my slip-ups and unfulfilled promises to myself I cringe. When I read other blogs, it makes me realize that I am not alone and that feels so reassuring. I think it can take a number of years from the time one starts thinking that maybe one has a problem with alcohol until one actually is able to walk away. I am a late bloomer. Although I am close to sixty years old I have only been abusing alcohol since I was 45 and recognized it as a problem about 8 years ago. What a slow learner... I think I've done my time. I've had my million tries. I've got the badges to prove it: fluctuating self esteem, vast knowledge of alcoholism, sober pen pals, sobriety app on phone, my own personal sad little blog, favourite sober websites, blogs, etc. I've got friends and family who think I'm crazy for my back and forth decisions, those who try to tell me I am a normie, those who give me the evil eye when they see me with drink in hand and others who support me no matter where I am in my 'journey'.
Eventually those of us who truly want to quit, DO SUCCEED. We do. We have to. I will. I am.
I don't drink.