Last night I went to the next village to pick up my Uncle/Bestie close to the bus stop as he was visiting and the bus did not come all the way to our tiny village.
I arrived early and browsed the local shops. I ended up close to a pub style restaurant I love and called him. He was walking towards me and so I told him to meet me at the pub. As I hung up and waited my monkey mind went into overdrive.
"I'll order him a beer so we can chat before I drive him home."
"They really do have nice draft beer here."
"I should be sociable and join him in a drink."
"But what about my abstinence commitment."
"Exactly why did I give it up completely?"
"I should make sure I don't drink in the house but here at the pub it's Okay."
"One bloody beer won't kill me will it?"
"I really should think about this ... it always starts innocently enough..."
"Do I really want the cycle to re-start?"
"Would a cup of tea satisfy me the way a beer would?"
Then he arrived and vetoed the pub stop as he had bought a large bottle of red and wanted to go to my place and get drunk as he had had a shitty day.
I am not sure what I would have done if he had agreed but when I got home I poured him a large glass of wine, one for my hubby and myself a glass of water with a couple of drops of Spearmint Essential Oil. It was delicious.
Today, I went to meet a friend for lunch and we don't normally drink at lunch. I had an unhealthy lunch and a Pepsi which is something I never drink. We chatted and parted ways. On the way out I passed the Wine Store and a lady had a big sign saying FREE WINE TASTING. I passed her and she invited me in to taste some. Without a second thought I smiled at her, shook my head and declared "No thanks; I am a NON-DRINKER".
Tonight hubby is taking me and my elderly mother out to a nice restaurant that has lovely draft beer. Wish me luck. Right now I am sure I'll remain abstinent.