The reality of life sure turns one's interest to escape at times. Especially at the end of a day with lots of commitments. I think one of the triggers for drinking is too much to do with no time to unwind. I am setting myself up to fail if I continue to burn the candle at both ends.
I love the time I spend with my Grandkids and it's never enough but when it rains, it sometimes, pours. Today I had two little munchkins all day, tomorrow I mind those two (6 & 3) and two others (2 and 1) because of a death in the family of my daughter's partner. I also take care of my mother (who broke her hip, 2 ribs and disclocated her arm recently) full time as she lives with me .... and I run a construction business office (the only administrative employee). The business is unusually busy thanks to Justin Trudeau, our new prime minister. On top of that my 13 year old niece is living with me indefinitely and her mother is moving in on Friday.
I am one busy chick. Hubby has been working out of town and is arriving to a crazy zoo tomorrow. I feel like I have to keep those 4 little ones quiet when he arrives but at the same time make dinner and try to have a romantic welcome home type evening.
Yikes. I found half a bottle of red wine tonight and looked at it longingly. I did not drink. Instead I wrote some notes on how I will set things up tomorrow to make the day as seamless as possible.
The good news is that my life is not constantly quite this crazy busy. At the end of this week, I will not accept any more intense commitments until I have a chance to rest.
Once Mom passes (not wishful thinking but a reality given her age and health) and my sister and her daughter launch... once my children's children are in school (5 to 6 years) and once I've retired from the family business (5 years) I will not be this busy and I know that these days will be full of happy memories. I enjoy each time I see the little ones, I love beating my mom at cards, having a young teenager in the house is a lot of fun. Life will sometimes seem empty in the future. I have to embrace these times.
The only thing consistent in life is inconsistency.