Good morning!! Where has the summer gone? In early July my elderly mother who lives with me fell and broke her hip and there went all our plans for vacation. Coincidentally, our business was crazy busy and it would have been difficult to take time off to go to the lake but we sure had a hot one. Thank Gawd for AC.
Mom is recovering remarkably well in that she is walking slowly and carefully but has come a long way in the past month plus. She is actually able to do most things by herself.
I have to admit that when she got home from the hospital and was completely helpless and needed 24 hour care, I got pretty discouraged and popped open a few bottles of wine to drown my sorrows. My drinking has never returned to it's previous quantity but my goal has never been to moderate; it's been to QUIT. I've had lots of sober days and nights but still have never accomplished an ongoing streak of sobriety that lasted longer than a few months.
You guys must be getting pretty sick of me. I would rather stick my head in the sand and vanish from the face of this blog but the sober cyber world is encouraging in that open arms usually await me. I deserve a little kick in the butt but then forgiveness as always.
So now instead of hardly drinking I am switching gears to never drinking. The reality is that if I let myself go and just do as I please, it creeps up very slowly and stealthily. I went grocery shopping yesterday and 1. I was very tempted to buy a bottle of wine conveniently sold instore which I haven't done in years and 2. They had about a dozen wine samples displayed in thimble sized plastic glasses and I envisioned downing all of them in quick succession. Both thoughts are disturbing.
My son pulled another horror show with his overdoing of the booze and that's a real reminder of one of the original reasons I decided to quit... to set a good example for my kids and grandkids.
I hope all of you are doing fantastic. I am.