I have been fighting high blood pressure for a year now and had asked the doctor to give me a few months to get it down myself before he prescribed meds. He agreed and yesterday morning was the do or die day. I haven't had a drink in 40 days (yay me!!!!) and my blood pressure was normal! I knew that it would be lower because I've been feeling so much calmer and healthier since I've stopped drinking. So that was great news but it was over-shadowed by even greater news.
My daughter gave birth to my fourth grandchild yesterday. She is a healthy six pounder and looks like a porcelain doll. Both Mom and Baby are doing great.
It seems that everything is so much clearer now. By that I mean, I don't feel like I am watching life happen around me; rather I feel like a vibrant participant in my own life. Does that make sense? Before I was hiding behind a rose hued screen and glimpsed, commented on and hid from most of what went on around me.
It helps that I am living in my new community and can participate in conversations for the first time in 12 years because these conversations are taking place in my own language rather than French. My quit timing was amazing in that I removed the booze filter while at the same time a door opened that allows me to comprehend the goings on without straining to translate every damn word.
I now live my life in the now, authentically, without confusion and with hope for the future.