I have been fighting high blood pressure for a year now and had asked the doctor to give me a few months to get it down myself before he prescribed meds. He agreed and yesterday morning was the do or die day. I haven't had a drink in 40 days (yay me!!!!) and my blood pressure was normal! I knew that it would be lower because I've been feeling so much calmer and healthier since I've stopped drinking. So that was great news but it was over-shadowed by even greater news.
My daughter gave birth to my fourth grandchild yesterday. She is a healthy six pounder and looks like a porcelain doll. Both Mom and Baby are doing great.
It seems that everything is so much clearer now. By that I mean, I don't feel like I am watching life happen around me; rather I feel like a vibrant participant in my own life. Does that make sense? Before I was hiding behind a rose hued screen and glimpsed, commented on and hid from most of what went on around me.
It helps that I am living in my new community and can participate in conversations for the first time in 12 years because these conversations are taking place in my own language rather than French. My quit timing was amazing in that I removed the booze filter while at the same time a door opened that allows me to comprehend the goings on without straining to translate every damn word.
I now live my life in the now, authentically, without confusion and with hope for the future.
I loved reading this post -- particularly the bits about being a vibrant participant in your own life. You put it so well. Life without booze is so much more immediate and clear. (Found you through Mrs D. I live in NZ but have roots in your country. I also loved reading your post about walking on the river path in bare feet.)
ReplyDeleteHi. I love your posts. Have been reading them for some time and I was wondering if you would be willing to communicate with me one on one...via email. I too am an older woman - almost 60 with grandkids and struggling to quit doing this every night crawling into a bottle routine.. anyway..if you would be willing...how do i give you my email privately?
ReplyDeleteLoved this post! Congrats on the new gbaby. Aren't they the very best. It's 32 days for me and I get a little sad thinking of all the moments I missed because I chose wine over gbaby time. But... Today is a new day and I'm here now - right? I'm so happy you are in a location that is bringing you so much joy. You deserve that. Ginger - MWO
ReplyDeleteGreat post,I'm trying,trying,trying to piece that many days but not giving up on myself.I really needed to read the b.p. thing.They scream at me every time I go to the Dr and can't take the meds,hello I'm hungover as shell when I do go.Great incentive to stay with no booze no matter what.
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