My sugar addiction is in full swing and with my Mom living here, the sweets are everywhere. I am not gaining weight but not losing it either. I have a wedding in Mexico (my Son's) in January and would love to feel good in my bathing suit so have to eventually work on those sugar cravings. I am going pretty easy on myself right now because I am so early in this
I have been listening to the Bubble Hour quite a bit especially while I am knitting or jumping on my mini-trampoline.
In general, life has gotten a lot more manageable in the past year of mostly sober time. I am a better office administrator (
My eating habits are slowly improving too although with my 85 year old Mom here, I have to serve meat and more traditional food which I am easing away from in my own personal tastes. She is really doing well and is not a burden whatsoever as I had feared she would be.
I never realized how lonely my Mom must have been living alone these past thirty five years since the youngest in the family moved out. She has been a crusty, negative alcoholic for as long as I remember and now that she's here and allowed one beer a day, she is smiling, curling her hair, practicing the piano and walking taller. She has even laughed a few times. I am witnessing the rebirth of a woman who was dying of loneliness and it warms my heart.
Yesterday I went for a long walk on the wooded path by the river. At the end of my walk I stood on the riverbank and was able to lose myself in taking deep breaths from the essence of my being and symbolically sucking all my deep self-loathing up to the surface. In my out breath I sent long, swooshes of healing love out into the world. It really felt good.
I am happy to be on this sober journey even with all my pitfalls as it has led me to discover my spiritual side and to other like-minded healing souls like you.