I had an amazing weekend sans alcohol. On Friday the whole family converged here to make homemade pizzas from scratch. Imagine five under five all with miniature rolling pins sitting at the counter rolling out their dough. It was messy, hilarious fun. We all had lots of pizza pie. I made a pineapple upside down cake for the celebration of my Mom`s 86th birthday and all the little ones helped her blow out the candles. My daughter doesn`t drink; she`s Asian and it really affects her. My two DIL drank my former fav, Red wine and neither of them over-did it. I was not tempted at all. It helped that I had a baby or toddler on my lap all evening.
Saturday my hubby`s son and his 19 year old daughter came over to celebrate his birthday. He requested that we choose four recipes from his favourite Vegan Cookbooks, Trinity`s Conscious Kitchen and Angelicious so we cooked together. We made vegan pesto with basil, garlic, soaked sunflower seeds, olive oil, etc., a salad to pour the pesto over, Quinoa-Black Bean ``Neat`` loaf, sweet potato wedges with fresh rosemary and a chocolate coconut birthday cake with millet, rice and tapioca flour. Bananas instead of eggs. The icing was made with soaked dates, avocado, maple syrup and other healthy stuff. We had so much fun. He asked me to join him and hubby in drinking Gin and Tonics while we cooked and I happily declined.
Today I meet with the Moon Gathering Woman`s group that I confessed my alcoholism to last month. That truth told to that group has helped keep me on the straight and narrow when I was tempted. I am so pleased to be able to state that I am over a month sober. I felt accountable and it is so worth it.
My sobriety has brought my scattered ADD brain to the forefront of my consciousness and I don`t like feeling the confusion. I prefer to hide behind the booze. But I can`t just use the booze and be done with it. Booze is not a tool I can live with using. The reality is I can`t drink and be happy. Those two things don`t go together.
I choose happiness.