I had a relaxing weekend at the lake. I read two books and cooked great meals. Hubby drank copious amounts of wine and beer. He said he needed a weekend like that to recover from his week. I didn't care as he didn't get stupid or smell bad. I was able to keep the place up and running, go for a crisp swim in the frigid lake water, wash and hang clothes on the line, bake pumpkin applesauce muffins, a chicken curry, home made burgers, delicious veggie, cheese omelettes and other delectable dishes. I was also able to treat my bladder infection by taking two D-Mannose capsules every two hours or so. I never would have done all that with booze in the picture. I would have had to go on anti-biotics and felt bloated and tired at the end of the weekend.
But still, the thought of taking a wine soaked trip to Europe appeals to me. I've been telling myself that I could drink to my heart's content on a trip away and come back to sobriety. Not sure if that is a reality or a fantasy. Any idea?
I also sometimes think that at Christmas I can buy a bottle of Sambuca and nurse it over the holidays. Ya right!
As much as I can pour hubby a glass of red without a twinge of craving, I still feel very vulnerable. I believe that "Wolfie" will come a calling when my guard is down. I have to keep posting and keep reading.
Cockiness is my usual downfall in the sobriety department. Granted, I've never had four months of sobriety under my belt but I am worried that I will one day have to start at another day one.
Easy today, drinking tomorrow.