Immersing Myself in Sobriety

Right now I am so committed to abstaining from booze and I hope I can keep the momentum going forever.  I know it's impossible but I will do everything in my power to do so.

Reasons for staying sober in no particular order as my priorities are screwed up still:

1. To get the monkey off my back; in other words, to stop wasting 80% of my life in alcohol related activities including drinking and especially obsessing over drinking
2. To be the best Wife, Granny, Mother, and Friend I can be.
3. To open the door to stimulating activities that cannot be done with booze in the picture as in spiritual searching, reading, gourmet cooking, writing, meditation, exercise, community involvement, knitting, making music and much more.
4. To enter my menopausal years with a clear head, clean body, open mind and vulnerable heart.
5. To enjoy my mornings at the lake house and at home without the dull headache, upset stomach, dry mouth and depressed mind that drinking wine the night before creates.
6. To accomplish a goal, which in itself, will be the most difficult victory of my life and thus opening myself to endless, amazing possibilities.
7. To be an encouraging example to beloved family members who struggle with their alcohol compulsions and who have only seen me try to abstain and fail time and time again.

What I am doing differently this time:

1. Meditating most mornings
2. Following numerous sobriety blogs and listening to podcasts such as The Bubble Hour
3. Being actively involved in the My Way Out Forums
4. Drinking tons of water
5. Using this blog as an accountability tool
6. Planning and designing a Serenity Room in my new home where I will retreat to ground myself on a daily basis

When I read what I've written above, I hope that it is enough to sustain me.  From everything I've read, it takes years of persistence to beat the beast.  I am not very consistent at the best of times so this is an especially big challenge for me.

Yikes!!